Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe discomfort around one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Laura Lucero
Laura Lucero

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